So... It works? Wow

I see things.... and I notice things the little things in life and i think i appreci them more than anything..

i have been saying this alot lately because the little things seem to matter the most in my soul

i can say yes... this makes me happy inside

u kno it has... but its not a honest happy... i feel torn but i think i am working thru that because i AM honest i AM sincere i have nevr held my tongue.. i will not change because of this

then y does this feel weird... dear god i hate that word but i have been throwing it around cause it suits the purpose

memory lane... dreams... its all bogus to me

its hollow

u kno i cant trust... so wha makes me think that i can believe anything that i hear these days

it all goes in one ear and out of the other... because i refuse to believe something that cannot be true it cant

gosh i have been getting alotta shit thrown at me... because i am not concerned at all with normalcy, an i never will be...

been thinking alot about who i am an the things i do... she's such a cute bee :)

i tell myself everyday... i love who i am
its hard cause some times i do not like the things i think...

i am so scared of never being loved

i am scared of never having my own

i am scared of never having a forever

I wan that feeling everyday when i wake up that i will always be enough... because love is always enough... to weather it all... true love weathers every obstacle

i stand firm in everything i believe in... and that is never going to change

i wrote this an idk if i blogged it yet...

May 26th, 2010- 3:45a

"Wha a broken heart feels... an educated mind cannot understand.. for the matters of the heart weave tangled and misguided cobwebs around all sense of being, common sense, and sensability...

love is not patient love is not kind... love is the best an worst thing to happen to a human soul in its existence.

But wha love does not kno... is that it truly will be the end of us when it breaks our spirits....."

I wish i could record me saying it right now... its my passion that always gets me in trouble :)

and this I truly am passionate about

(As I reread it I continued)

Love is the ghost in the night that steals our breath away...

its the wind blow thru our clothes, giving goosebumps...

its the stars in the sky each night

love is the rose that dies.... and Selena plays in my head

"Como la flor,

Con tanto amor,

Me diste tú,

Se marchitó

Me marcho hoy

Yo sé perder

Pero ay...

Cómo me duele

Ay...

Cómo me duele"

Song of the Blog...

Pink- Love song

I've never written a love song

That didn't end in tears

Maybe you'll rewrite my love song

If you can replace my fears

I need your patience and guidance

And all your lovin' and more

When thunder rolls through my life

Will you be able to weather the storm?

There's so much I would give ya, baby

If I'd only le myself

There's this well of emotions

I feel I must protect

But what's the point of this armor

If it keeps the love away, too?

I'd rather bleed with cuts of love

Than live without any scars

Baby, can I trust this?

Or do all things end?

I need to hear that you'd die for me

Again and again and again

So tell me when you look in my eyes

Can you share all the pain and happy times

'Cause I will love you for the rest of my life

This is my very first love song

That didn't end in tears

I think you re-wrote my love song

For the rest of my years

I wil love you for the rest of my Life